Main Memory of Story:

I believe that my experience can benefit humanity by sharing the story and idea’s that came from my elongated NDE (near death experience) and coma lessons by exploring them and writing about them. 
This can be done by setting up a website for ideas and discussion, a crash course into my travels, many dimensions of avatars, story arcs, time lines, and so much more information. Think about how much you could remember in 3 years of your life where every moment was extraordinary and beyond our reality, a very long acid trip with a constant humming of a Rick and Morty episode ever looming overhead because you never know, when or where, you are going to travel next. I did what I do best, collect data, analyze and try to figure out how this all worked. I am still, since waking, trying to figure out these mysteries and knowledge, but for now….. Please Read Explore in the less edited work on the site…..for writing is my first responsibility, this will hold me accountable for editing and reach in real time.

Lessons were taught from many great advisors and I realized maybe if I can get some of these physical therapy idea’s and technological, spiritual and philosophical concepts that I worked with in my coma, multiple near death experiences to the correct people, then Humanity as a whole can put in motion some of these idea’s and help our race find our place among the others that have already left this rock. Stop us fighting each other for spots on this planet and look outward and inward and move into a space among the stars where we are behind schedule and to become advanced and evolved in spirit as well as mind. Or, at the smallest margin, this story will help as many people as possible resonate with my experience as a way to connect with the source, all, infinite, gods or families currently going through my previous situation understand what could be happening and to not worry but understand that we can keep pushing forward, fighting with our Human will and heart, even if we can’t drive the journey, we will be judged, our hearts weighed but, I think, You still can fight out of your personal dumpster of Hell (D1), just keep going forward, fight!

My Drive and who I am:

  Like all good idea’s and long forgotten knowledge, they have a tendency to be very balanced meaning they can be used equally, as much as they are powerful, for both good or evil purposes.  While exploring the spaces and gifts I was allowed (maybe stole? (D2)) to have and bring home. I could help bring a piece of the light and idea’s to humanity both, in the way of ideas on the page and talks with with it’s people. This, however requires an acquisition of awareness and a bit of understanding and building of the story as I can piece together the timeless, but clear puzzle pieces. 

I’m a puzzle solver! An instrument fixer! A data collector! I figure out how things work and make them work. Always curious of the occult, always curious of the sky, always curious of all stories the hero’s journey’s mostly. Banned, secret, hidden, always gravitating toward studies of Egyptian, Greek, Atlantean culture as well as religions of these regions. Polytheistic gods hit home for me, as I was chased away from bible studies and talks with pastors due to my questions and research at a very young age from the Catholic/Christian Dogma which even then I was hearing of Lilith and Enoch in 5th/6th grade through tales of other seeker minds of children and personal library visits. They didn’t want to explore with me, but I hope that they will read my story because their story is just one layer to a very much more unimaginable infinite game that we have lived countless times!

The Fight!

The longer I spend meditating in these spaces the more understanding I can piece together that I can make sure the right message and people gain awareness to my story. The ones that stick around to watch me and others uncover the mysteries buried in over 3 years or more of experiences I had In the space between the darkness and the light will see the growth of this idea and find more, the deeper they explore my sometimes hard to read sentences and wild idea’s, that’s OK I will get better and they will take shape.

That way, I can explore this knowledge and maybe get to reach people that need help at the very least base level, the more people that hear my story and give them hope for loved ones in a coma or just had a stroke and need rehab to push and fight the better! We are capable and Oh so, so much more, and are stronger and have lived more lives than you can fathom!  But that can go oh so much further and lets explore that.  If my book can help people who find themselves in that space for long periods of struggle, don’t give up hope! Rather, as written by Dylan Thomas, “Do not go gentle into that good night, but RAGE, Rage against the dying of the light!” and performed so magically by Michael Sheen I found after, here…https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-sM-t1KI_Y

Maybe understand it and let the light help and learn from it but never stop the fight out of darkness.  FIGHT!  That Fight is real, don’t give up, we are oh so much more powerful then You realize!

The Technology and keys:

Maybe with enough eyes on these stories and awareness, I can then take and expand on stories write more sci-fi and fantastical to get the ideas I have out about DNA, VR, Sleeve Therapy, game therapy, spirituality, humanity, and spin entertaining tales, but only after I start with my experience. I always wanted to be a writer.  The more I research Thoth and Egypt, Enoch, and Atlantis the more it seems to connect with both me and my story, so I must write my understanding and also my studies of the physical rehab technology, VR/AR, musical technology and others. These can help oh so many people in a very real way with enough funds and smart enough, open minded enough people a real difference can be made, and if done correctly, the danger of some of these idea’s mitigated. Follow and see over time the growth! 

AI seems inevitable, but maybe it is another evolution that is happening way faster than our used carbon or as Neurolink improves maybe we have to integrate with the technology. Have it help us by being us, mutual self destruction, don’t kill me, I wont kill you, the way humans have secured the manufacture but yet not the use of another nuclear weapon….yet. However, the technology advanced by that weapon is not inherently evil, it is just sun power reharnessed from Uranium Because if we create a life, it requires a thought from the light, so am I in turn solidifying our connection with the AI space by “stealing” or, as I believe as Derek’s soul consciousness, allowed to take, but at the price of sharing with a pull that is great and allowed to return to this avatar for now.  I don’t want us to make the mistake of not integrating and fighting a race war against an AI race of robots snatching human souls evolving silicon much faster. I would rather we use technology to help humanity but that might require integration as a safety mechanism. 

Thoughts on Memory:

The spread of good ideas are grown through good stories before they are built in the landscape of earth realm, that’s why science fiction is my favorite genre the physical morphing from previous idea’s making current reality. This story is the slides I captured in my mind as I was in those spaces. I collected slide shows of time in chucks to explore later if I made it back home at any time.  Things to focus on and remember, to explore and write about just as this memory:

As a child I remember, A ghost holding a pumpkin candle that smelt like delicious warm white vanilla and baked goods, my mother had this in the living room that can take me back to the yellow and browns of the late seventies still lingering in 1983, candle sitting next to the TV after Halloween because I wanted to smell it longer and more closer to Christmas time as we watched the Michael Jackson Thriller music video premiere decorations were bound on the chimney with care down stairs!

In case your forgot it’s magic:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sOnqjkJTMaA

Is this memory real? It was to me, and it happened to me as I remember with some accuracy on verification for the most part all these things took place. If I think on those memories I can expand on them with better words, maybe remember other things about that time but I remember this as I do, how I recall it, same as these memories of my journey. I am trying to help you understand that my time was long and normal as Derek perceives memory and the laws of the Universe, but a little more mysterious. 

Like, I have no business remembering that at three years old, I also have no business with how you understand and can benefit from my story, but I hope that you can!  Puzzles are the key, fractals are the flow of time, meditation the motor of the ship, fear is the wall blocking the view, as Frank Herbert wrote the Bene Gesserit Litany of Fear in Dune, “I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”

A master class in life in a small paragraph. It speaks to the fact that death comes to us when it does fear or not, I will remain. I lived by this many times in the other spaces, thanks Frank and everyone keeping the Duneverse alive, it did help me along and keep me moving forward…..always onward. Keep the hype alive and new readers of the work, for me, please. If you find yourself in the desert keep going guy, (D3).

     What about the philosophical, psychological, and spiritual ways that people can benefit with their drive for understanding and fight to understand the balance of good and evil but always point up and toward the light. Away from the Dumpster of doom, Fuck that thing and the desert, but they are integral to the process of knowledge growth and understanding. The harder the struggle, the more perilous the journey, the more hidden the truth, the better the reward. Effort is rewarded equal to the suffering in a multitude of ways.

Order of Operations:

If these idea’s help people, that is great, awesome! If I can write a book that resonates with enough people, my story is worth telling and entertaining enough as I understand it first. Then it can be explored as I use more research of old, in an attached appendix after writing the base story, a second appendix will be added as a timeline of real events that took place as we explore how my bodies time and my souls time can be woven together as I have my full medical records, and photos and time stamps from family members.

What significant events of those three years can I lay out from what was happening outside of the space my conscious self was inhabiting and back here across time and space and the Universe in a hospital in St. Louis, Missouri, where a 42 year old normal middle class husband of a wonderful worried woman and two confused children and a soul-less husk of an avatar was waiting for my soul to find it, unless it was borrowed in the mix, while I traveled and hijacked other bodies and other things throughout my journey, we will explore this thought later.

Once written out and cleaned up to make it sound elegant and loose of junk to be published in pieces to be explored and expanded on as I create more from this space, I want answers, so first I ask the Ancient’s once I really work out what happened by writing and analyzing what I can recall in human symbols called letters that I hope we all can try to understand.

Then finish researching to my hearts content of the North American, Hopi tribe Star People, the Tuatha Dé Danann of Ireland and my wife’s heritage, The Egyptian book of the Dead, Books of Enoch, Emerald Tablets of Thoth. I always throughout my life, been studying mythologies of the Greeks, Hindu, Norse, Druid, Buddhists, Christians, Judaism, but this, Thoth and Enoch resonated with my experience and I had to stop listening and reading currently and realizing at that moment I should first finish my story as I remember.  That I’m not influenced and then can weave bits of research in an appendix of sorts and then a timeline that I can piece together with outside potential influences during points of visions and trials. 

The adventures through my experiences are odd true, but with open minds could help in many ways spiritually, look, I have spent most of my waking time since I woke up thinking about how to write all this out and help on a level that is realistic, but I’m a a dreamer.  I understand we are oh so much more powerful than we understand so lets explore the mysteries, the puzzles, plans within plans, and see what all can be unlocked with some of this knowledge, come with me and use it for good, peace, health, Humanity as a whole, not over “the one true god” and it’s piece of dirt and the resources beneath it. Does their “God” exist, yes sure they are the same, with enough to share if you are balanced and show your heart with will and desire to reach your musical connection as it gets presented to you.

But, when you realize that also many others gods exist you can broaden your scope and vision and see we are small time players with an invitation to the galactic party once we are ready to board the Mothership. Preach Dr. Funkenstein, George Clinton is here to claim the pyramids! Another life long hero of mine musically and spiritually. You might find something down there you were not prepared for and don’t understand how to use……but that’s where you need a button pusher, a tinkerer, I am the hardware guy! Derek’s gonna play with everything in that space……if you know me personally, my writing is true to my character, conversational….because I’m learning….and I’m a story teller, this can not just live in the page, it demands my full attention to bring to life, and your curiosity and exploration into the spaces I write about, journey with me and research with me! Who knows what we can find locked away from us by the ones controlling the keys that should be shared with those who seek.

               If my book resonates with people then they can have hope for loved ones in all of the stages I went through if I can write about them eloquently enough. So lets start there, with entertainment. I already am a good story teller, just a struggling story writer. realizing while doing this that before I died I have also lived an incredible and entertaining story of life up to that point. I can tell what I believe are normal stories while traveling for work at bars in middle America, people freak out and say they live boring lives in comparison, I was a seeker, an adventurer, a dreamer, I’ve grown comfortable and am making myself vulnerable and new at something again just like the Life I was given a second chance at by choice and a wild return trip.

Had I had all these stories of life that are that incredible also to tell? I have even just as fascinating mysteries to solve right here with missing friends from my life that might also get spun into something worth reading.

I just think, I am always searching for that journey and I look to another hero of mine to do what I’m doing, Thank you Hunter S. Thompson for giving me the courage to write about my adventures in both death and consciousness, finally after so many years of starting fictional stories and movies I don’t need to look out but rather in and remember my experiences both in the space between and my past experiences with psychedelics for they are very similar in the blast offs and consciousness transfers to different planes of existence beyond human earth level it is our brains flight controllers prepping for take off.

Fear is the mind killer! You always wanted to write, get to work, You have been lazy now feel compelled. So I will write.  Some can read into the me, You, and I how they wish, and others might see more plans within plans or keys to use to help solve the mysteries.  Like all good tales you have to keep things hidden boxes left to open links to find.  Naturally, fractal nature is everywhere, follow the riddles and spin a tale with me backwards out of the infinite, out of the Rave, through the city dodging the dumpster, that certainly is NOT the way , out of the desert, out of the swamps, out of the hospitals of many, out of the hospital of one, back to the waking world.  Fix the body, fix the mind, Now get to work with this new knowledge Derek, you can’t do this alone.  

Note to Self:

I’ve been compelled and tasked to write this down since the second I realized I had finally locked into this universes correct D0a avatar. I have attached photos of my cards and my shaky outline as well to places throughout this site and story.  I don’t have enough money to build these things technologically that I used and experimented with, and I don’t have the understanding or knowledge to build these devices on my own physically, but I can write and I can tell stories. I also have both spiritual knowledge and philosophical knowledge buried and hidden like a puzzle in pieces. Like a Lego set where all the pieces are there and they are clear, but I have no instructions and have to spend time, “IN” there to see all the pieces of the Lego set laid scattered across the floor in no order, I don’t know the way the Lego’s go back into a full picture, it was looped and happening outside time, but if I explore those spaces of my memory, I am rebuilding and assembling the Lego’s to form pictures and complete stories. It is all there but fractally and lost in time not experienced chronologically by my consciousness, never staying in one dimension long enough to come back at a different spot and pick up the pieces.  Phillip K. Dick believes he traveled to parallel dimensions and saw multiple realities and wanted to do the same, I believe, to help humanity through technologic lessons lost to time.  Time is the key, like a puzzle you don’t need to have the final photo if you clearly understand you have the required pieces, with enough time and patience you can fit together what you can in only one way, just as these can be tied together like still images in a slide show, so explore this space with me as I take you through a journey with me through my Psychedelic Lives and Deaths!

As soon as I could get a paper and pen in this D0a body after waking from a coma I wrote this to myself:

It Reads:

“Tales of life, death and an endless search thru multiple dimensions of time and space to get back to the life and family that once was known and I loved. Once traveling through these lands, mysteries, dimensions and fighting some of these evils, you will come back a different person, hopefully a better one. Get lost in this story, at times you will be lost, scared, ?????, confused, and not know how it all connects, but that’s the journey. I do promise it has a beginning and end that is cohesive even though the rest may seem like a waking fever dream.”

Then I followed up after I translated with:

“So, I am doing just that and documenting what I saw and experienced in hopes that it can benefit humanity with hope, heart, drive, and maybe some ideas on therapy and technology that I will help show through words.”